.: Life-Changing :.

Man, what an emotional yet fulfilling weekend. A weekend full of laughs, and tears, happiness and sadness, comfort and fear...I probably felt every emotion possible this weekend. I had a ton of moments for growth. I learned so much about self and realized that I'm in a new season...


Saturday night I broke down. I went from baking cupcakes to crying in a dark room in my friend's house...What in the world?!? I wonder if I'm going through the change early? No, really...There have been so many times that I've just emotionally broken down out of nowhere. No warning, no signs of when it will come or end. Saturday was one of those days.

I hadn't been feeling 100% all day, but I knew that I had to be there for my friends. They needed me...So I put self behind, and put others in front. I think that's where I went wrong. I told a friend of mine that I think I'm going to start being a bad friend. She asked why...I told her that everyone runs me to death...But reality is, it's not all their fault. I allow them to. I'm always the one that's there...The one that everyone can rely on. I always put others before self but how come I never have my own Selfish moments? Well it's time that I do...I'm sure some of you are going to be like, "How dare she?" some will say "Good for you Leslie" either way I'm taking time away...

That's it! Eureka! I need a break from everything and everybody...Time to go back to God on some things...I think he is preparing me for what's next in my life...As I think about my roommate moving away, and me having to find a place on my own, maybe that's what I have to face...The reality of being alone for once. I've always surrounded myself with people and never really taken time for me. It's time I start. So if that means I miss a few outings here and there...Or that I have to spend a friday night in the house, so be it.

My prayer is that folks understand where I'm going...If you don't maybe our season as friends is over...I've grown to know and understand that friendships go through their own seasons...and as much as it may hurt, I have to accept that things are going this way for a specific purpose/reason.

Although it hurts even now to think about the major changes that are about to take place, I'm confident that God will be my comforter when I need it. He will continue to love me even in times when I feel alone and feel as though no one else understands.

I thank him for the strong support system that has been built. The family/friends that have been there to support, to comfort, and help heal. God is sooooo awesome! I won't name anyone's name because I don't want to forget anyone...Y'all know my memory is horrible. But if you have read this message and will be a supporter of my next mission in life. Thanks in advance!!! To all of those that may not understand or may not support my decision, that's okay...I still love you anyway (Insider: That supernatural love: Insider)

RevRunWisdom: "Real friendship is shown in times of trouble, prosperity is FULL OF FRIENDS"-Euripides

Now's the time when my real friends will show up and show out...I already have one on my side, and his name is JESUS!

Well enough rambling for one day...

Remember:

God is Love...
God is...
God...

As always, I'm here with a listening ear.

Always
[LOVE]
Forever

.: LA :.